Valentine's Day

Yes, that day is coming. What does it mean to you? Singles Awareness Day? Or the Day of Love?

For me, it doesn't mean anything but candy and heart-shaped cookies at this point. Seriously. When I think of Valentine's Day, I think of my little grade school foil shoe box being filled with candy and generic valentine cards.  I remember looking at the valentine from my crush longingly, hoping that maybe he personalized it for me, just a bit. But, of course. these cards were all required for everyone in the class and we just whipped them out the night before because we were all slackers.

I'm ranting. I think. My point is, maybe, that I really don't have anything love-related in my schema of Valentine's Day. Really, to me, it's just getting fake cards and maybe some candy if you're lucky. So what I'm thinking is: wouldn't it be nice to actually, I dunno, be asked on a date? Because, in my experience (which is so far limited), I've been the one asking for dates. Which makes me feel pretty pathetic, but whatever.

The way I see it, I wouldn't have been on a date at this point in my life if I hadn't asked anyone. This has been a sad realization. But that's okay! Because I have my whole life ahead of me, and maybe, just maybe, some brave guy will come along and say, hey, maybe this crazy nerdy girl is worth dating.  Just maybe.

I think I'm turning this blog into a journal. Maybe that's good, though, because I'm not a huge fan of paper journals. So this is kind of an open-book journal for everyone to gawk and laugh at. I feel better just writing this, however, because I'm pretty sure no one reads this blog. Ever.

Back to my point. I think that for once, I'd like to have a romantic life. Because I'm a romantic person. But I'm not getting any romance. I really only need someone to just go to whenever I'm feeling lonely, or to hold my hand just because. And snuggle while watching a movie because that's just the most simple thing to do. I'm a hopeless romantic. I know you couldn't tell, but I am.

Maybe, just maybe, this Valentine's Day will be different. Maybe.

EDIT: It wasn't.